painful

Over her billows that buffet and beat us, her offspring uncared-for,

Casting one single regard of a painful victorious knowledge,

Into her billows that buffet and beat us we sink and are swallowed.'

These passing, curious, new phenomena—

Painful, and yet not painful unto it.

Though tortured in the crucible I lie,

Knowledge is hard to seek, and harder yet to adhere to.

Knowledge is painful often; and yet when we know we are happy.

Seek it, and leave mere Faith and Love to come with the chances.

Will, and must, woe is me, be one day painfully broken,--

Broken with painful remorses, with shrinkings of soul, and relentings,

Foolish delays, more foolish evasions, most foolish renewals.

And[205] soldiers make them ready to the fight.

The painful hind by thee to field is sent;

Slow oxen early in the yoke are pent.

Then should my plaints, caus'd of discourtesy,

As messengers of this my painful plight,

Fly to my love where ever that she be,

When she herself was young, and went to play;

And, turning to the painful scenes again,

The mournful changes she has meet since then,

Because my heart would throb less painful there,