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- Emily Dickinson

You know that Portrait in the Moon --

So tell me who 'tis like --

The very Brow -- the stooping eyes --

A fog for -- Say -- Whose Sake?

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The Message I Replied To Carefully

The notification appeared at the top of my screen during third period history, but I didn't open it until lunch when I found a quiet corner near the library. It was a direct message from Leah, someone I hadn't spoken to properly in months. The preview showed four words: 'Can we talk about yesterday?' I felt a knot tighten in my stomach. Yesterday I had made a comment in the group chat that she might have taken the wrong way. I remembered typing it quickly, not really thinking, and then seeing her go silent, then leaving the group chat entirely. Now here was the evidence of my carelessness, demanding a response that I wasn't sure I knew how to write.

Leah and I used to be close. We sat together in English, shared notes for history, and walked to the station most afternoons, often stopping for a slushie on hot days. But somewhere around the start of this term, things shifted. I started hanging out with a different group from basketball, and I stopped replying to her messages as often, usually with a quick 'sorry, busy'. Looking back, I can see that I prioritised the new crowd without really acknowledging what I was leaving behind. Her message now felt like a test — a chance to prove whether I still cared about the friendship we had built over two years of shared jokes and study sessions.

I stared at her message for a full minute, thumb hovering over the keyboard. A quick apology might have been easiest: 'Sorry, didn't mean it.' But that felt dismissive, as if I was brushing off her concern. I thought about the time she had stayed back after school to help me outline an essay I was stressed about, or the way she always remembered my favourite coffee order and brought me a hot chocolate on cold mornings. Those memories stacked up like evidence of a bond I had neglected. If I replied carelessly now, I would be confirming her suspicion that I didn't value her or the history we shared.

Her message now felt like a test — a chance to prove whether I still cared about the friendship we had built over two years of shared jokes and study sessions.

So I typed slowly, deleting and retyping each sentence until it felt right. I started by acknowledging her message directly, using her name to show I was paying attention. 'Leah, thanks for reaching out. I realise my comment sounded harsh and I'm sorry if it hurt you.' Then I added what I had been afraid to say for weeks: 'I've missed talking to you properly, and I want to fix that if you're open to it.' It wasn't dramatic or poetic, but it was honest in a way I hadn't let myself be recently. I pressed send before I could second-guess myself and delete the whole thing.

She replied almost immediately. 'Thanks for saying that. I was worried you'd just ignore it or make another joke.' We ended up messaging for over an hour, catching up on everything from assignments to family stuff. I learned she had been going through a rough patch with her parents, and my comment had hit a nerve she was already nursing. Her honesty made me realise how easy it is to assume the worst about someone's intentions when you don't have the full picture. I was grateful she had chosen to message me instead of letting the silence grow into something permanent.

That night, I re-read our conversation several times. What started as a knot in my stomach turned into a lesson about the weight of words and the power of a thoughtful response. I had evidence now — not just of my mistake, but of the fact that careful replies can rebuild what thoughtless ones break. The message I replied to carefully didn't erase the distance I had created, but it gave us a bridge back to each other. And that felt like a small victory worth holding onto, a reminder that even clumsy people can learn to choose their words with care.